Good Gravy. . .

Good gravy it's already Thanksgiving in lovely OH-IO. . . I am so happy to be home and on break.  School was making me feel like a computer that hadn't been backed up for awhile. . . I think I probably could have taken a couple sleeping pills and slept away my entire weekend which may or may not have been a bad thing as I processed an entire semester worth of life. 

There is a lot of I have to be thankful for today.  With this commitment I have made this year, I am focusing on all the ways that I am thankful for where I am in life and especially singleness.  

This might be even harder for me this year as my younger sister will be getting engaged to her high school sweetheart over Christmas.  It's that funny time of life. . .almost feels like I am fording a river. Behind me is my childhood and ahead of me is the "adult life". The in between-time. Like I am not necessarily a kid anymore but I haven't really accomplished much that screams "look! I am all grown-up!"  I feel like I am stuck just floating around in the water, trying my darn-dest to not get swept away in the waters of change.  There are others that are starting to get to shore ahead of me or at least closer too it (marriage, jobs kids etc.) 

Then I realize something. . .  if I were to push onto to the other side of this "in-between" time, how much I would want to be back in the water.  I am learning to enjoy the rush of the current around me.  Change is becoming something I love more than I fear.  I like being here, in-between childhood and looking forward to all the life ahead has for me. 

I am thankful for being at this place in my life. It doesn't last long and when it is over there is no going back.  I am thankful for career-less, mate-less, living with my parents and being almost broke but happy freedom of college life. I am thankful for my old car and having dumb, childish conversations and then switching to serious heart to hearts with those I love. I am thankful that I can still pull off converse shoes and braided pig-tails.  

Learning to be content and thankful for where I am in life has taught me how thankful I am for the sake of others . Romans 12:15a says "Rejoice with those who rejoice. . ." I get to watch as my friends and now even my little sister are reaching the other side. Sometimes I get to help push them along. 

Bottom-line:  This Thanksgiving I am thankful for this awkward in-between time of my life.  I am choosing to be thankful for the success of others as they are making it to the other shore and rejoicing as they are ready to leave the water.  I am thankful that in all of God's wisdom He is showing me that swimming against change is pointless. If I stop trying to fight it, He will carry me along and eventually, even I will reach the shore. 

"Promise me that you will not spend so much time treading water and trying to keep your head above the waves, that you forget, truly forget, how much you have always loved to swim." Tyler Knotts Gregson

Look hard.

I have exactly 7 minutes and 19 seconds until chapel starts. Today's challenge is to write something meaningful or at least somewhat encouraging in that space of time.

Honestly I haven't had too much on my mind or any astounding revelations from God recently. If it makes any sense at all, I am getting used to the challenge of this new lifestyle.

My greatest fear is getting too comfortable in my commitment and even though I know that I am not going to have a "mountain top" experience everyday of my life when it comes to my walk with God or even just in this next year, I don't want to miss ANYTHiNG He has for me.

I suppose I just need to look for Him in everyday moments...I just want all of God that I can get on this earth.

Maybe it's just about the desire. Maybe it's about the seeking itself.

Anyway, challenge coming to an end. I don't want to miss Him. Today I am going to look. Hard.